Ch-ch-ch-ch-changes

Turn and face the strain.
So here I am, with three weeks of school left before the summer, and I thought "hey, I've got a ton of crap on my mind, maybe I can go back to that blog I started way back and January and get some stuff off my chest". I remember one of my new years resolutions was to write in this blog regularly. Yep, didn't happen, and neither did my other two resolutions. My excuse for all three of those failures is that "I've been too busy".
However, I've realized lately that I'll never stop being busy. I'm a sophomore music education major in three ensembles and taking four private lessons, along with ministry team, Sigma Alpha Iota, and sometimes theater (less and less now, but I'm in the one-acts! Come see me May 15 and 16 at 8 PM in the Mill! Shameless plug, now back to your regularly scheduled programming). Next year I'll be an RA which means even more responsibilites, and I'm already sort of freaking out about it because my workload is going up next year too. I'm definitely cutting back to just two lessons, and maybe just two ensembles (I really want to stay in all three though). Then after I graduate I'll be going into the "real world" and hopefully getting a teaching job...and as I've become more and more aware of, teaching is quite a time-consuming job, and I'll be putting in a lot more hours after the school day ends. And once, God willing, I get married and have kids...I don't even want to think about it. Never sleeping again. Oh life.
This idea of me never not being busy has made me seriously consider dropping out of school. Or changing majors (because music ed is exceptionally strenuous), but I honestly don't know what else I would do with my life. I have an aspiration of using music for world relief...if I could just do benefit concerts for the rest of my life (or even just ten or so years) I would be happy. That might even be something I try to do. I don't know, part of me feels like I'm wasting my money and my good years at school pursuing a degree that I'm not 100% sure is right for me, but then miss practical kicks in and tells me that I'll regret dropping out. But seriously, when stuff gets tough, I fantasize of dropping out of school and doing mission work/world relief for the rest of my life.
You still reading? Kudos to you, I have to say I don't know how interesting I would find this if I were someone else reading it. But hey, I'm not trying to dis your tastes or anything. Anyways, I'm also really excited/nervous/anxious about this summer. I originally wanted to work at Lutherdale again, but long, aggravating story short, that didn't work out. Fortunately, I got a job offer at another Lutheran bible camp called Luther Park. Lauren, the youth director at my church at home, worked there for multiple summers, and judging on what she told me about it and what the director told me in my interview, it sounds pretty awesome and a good fit for me. There's a lot more off-site day camp opportunities (those were always my favorite weeks at Lutherdale) and the schedule works better with my schedule this summer-I have two weeks between school and camp, then I'm leaving camp two weeks early to go to school for RA training. I also get the entire week of July 4 off, which will be nice....since the camp is in Danbury, WI, which is 7 1/2 hours away. Yeah, I'll basically be living there for the summer and not coming home every other weekend like I did last year, but I'm mostly ok with that. There's a couple handfuls of people I'll miss in Skokie, but quite honestly my "home friends" are dwindling. Which sucks, but it is what it is. People grow up, as I'm learning first hand.
In conclusion, David Bowie was a pretty cool guy. And don't you go telling me that Gaga is the new Bowie. False statement.